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IM BLOODY PISSED OFF.
Sunday, May 04, 2008

so, today is just the most relaxing day.
hahah i spend the whole day at home today. how nice.
my mum's on her 24 hour shift cause of that dumb MSK and my dad ends late today.
i made my own breakfast lunch and dinner.
my mum called thrice today and all three conversations ended with me getting scolded cause i got annoyed that she kept calling to ask me what i'm eating what i've done what im doing.
felt like telling her to shut up.
where got people keep telling other people 'i'm going to fall into depression soon, my colleagues tell me the family members need to communicate with me to make me feel better! what lousy children i have for not communicating with me. not like my colleagues children' blah blah blah.

FOR GOODNESS SAKE get a life.
your colleagues your colleagues your stupid colleagues.
your colleagues can freaking do what they like with they're children.
fact is, this is how you raised me and this is how they raised THEY'RE children.
STOP BLOODY COMPARINGGGGGGGGGG. arghhhhhhhhhhhhhh
i feel like telling her, you wanna communicate then maybe you should start by listening.
and perhaps tried encouraging us to talk to you when we were younger and not ignore everything we say and forgetting everything we've ever told you then accusing us of not saying it.
perhaps you should blame yourself for making me grow up thinking that you guys aren't really interested in listening to what i've been thru in the day.

don't raise me one way and expect me to turn out different. ARGHHHH.
hypocrites. grown up are all hypocrites.
it makes me cringe to think i'll grow up to become just like them.

i think subconsciously she's just hoping she's really having depression so thats what she keeps telling everyone. she's refusing to go see a gynea or smth abt her menopause even tho she's getting hot flashes and she's abt as predictable as a dinosaur. ARGHHGHH. she's clearly going thru menopause can't she bloody see. no of course not. FFFFFFFFFFFF.

i feel like cursing and swearing.
stop calling home so many times IM ALMOST 20!
i can now drive drink smoke have sex and get pregnant without your consent.
and so far i've done none so can you give me more credit and stop calling to see if i've killed myself in a fire while cooking or let a damn stranger into my freaking house. ARGHHHH.
im laughing while im typing this cause its just damn ridiculous.
DAMN RIDICULOUS. argh and thats an understatement.

and im suddenly remembering how much i hated writing essays.

9:03 PM